You know, sometimes I fall into the trap of thinking I do it all. Having two kids is a little more work that I planned for it to be (isn't it always?) and of course there is always something to do. It's easy to fall into the trap of thinking you do more than your co-parent. Well. This weekend, I realized, if you live in a glass house, don't be throwin' no rocks. Scott left early Saturday morning to go to Atlanta to attend a wedding party for a dear friend of ours. A dear friend who's wedding we will not be able to attend later this summer. I encouraged him to go. I mean, it's only Saturday & Sunday and then I take the kids to school on Monday morning. He would be back on Monday afternoon. No problem, I say. It won't be any different than every day, right?
Well. Well. Well. And some more Well. Since I'm off on Fridays, I was with the kids all day Friday. I saw Scott for about 30 minutes total on Friday night because Nate and I went to the movie and then we all headed to bed shortly after we got home because frankly I was tired and Scott had to get up early on Saturday morning. Then I was with the kids all day Saturday. And Sunday. And Monday morning. I'm used to doing Fridays by myself. But Scott always comes home and we are all together for the weekend.
To say it wasn't as easy as I thought it would be is a huge, bigger than huge, understatement. I did not have time to do one single thing for myself from sun up to sun down. And since I let Nate sleep with me, I couldn't even go to bed when I wanted to because I had to stay up past him to get a few minutes to myself!
Lila would not sleep for more than 20 minutes in her crib (a new development in her sleep habits) and gets up at 5:30 AM. And Nate is not hard when he's awake but gosh dern he makes you talk, all.the.time. And if I had to talk about Star Wars much longer, well, let's just say, I might as well be dating Luke Skywalker. And if I remember, he's not that cute:)
When one kid would go to sleep, the other one would get up. When one kid wasn't screaming, grunting, or whining, the other one was. Or both at the same time, even better. Lila was on a new antibiotic that was doing fantastic things to her unmentionable output. And Nate decided he wanted to be sitting in my lap any time I was sitting down (which was about 2 minutes on Sunday morning, or when we were in the pool).
But there is something about this weekend that made me appreciate my children more and the little things they do. Like Nate's soft breathing while he is sleeping or Lila starting to put her head on my shoulder voluntarily. Or Nate asking what he can do to help me. Or Lila waking up happy as a lark, even if it is early.
I love my kids. Wow, I love them so much. I told them so many times this weekend. They didn't ruin my weekend, they enhanced it. They made me appreciate motherhood in ways that I've never appreciated it before. And they made me be very, very, very, very, very thankful that I am not a single mother. All those things I thought I was doing all by myself? Yep, not so much. Scott does a million billion things that I probably don't give him enough credit for - including whisking the kids away when I think I'm going to lose my mind. And taking out the trash. And cleaning the kitty litter box. And picking up the 5,987 Legos that collect themsevles on the coffee table. And entertaining the kids while I'm cooking dinner. And holding Lila so I can eat dinner. And playing with the kids so I can pick up the house so my OCD doesn't go into overdrive. And reading Nate's books before he goes to bed. And washing the bottles out at night so I don't have to in the morning. And keeping the kids so that I can go to the grocery store and Target by myself. And watering the tomato plants. And taking the kids to school. And finding things we lose, like bike helmets. And telling me that Lila is not allergic to the antibiotic, just a mirage I made up.
And most of all being there to tell me I'm doing a good job. Thank you Scott for all that you do. I hope your weekend away was fun! Cause you can never go away again. Just kidding...sort of:)